Ck Says:

是不是每一个人的情感经历都逃不出自己的轨迹？

那年，瓶子向一个暗恋的狮子表白，他接受了。于是瓶子和狮子迅速撞击出耀眼的火花。

两个月后，火花莫名其妙地消失了。剩下一地纸屑。相信在狮子心底甚至没有留下一点痕迹。好狠心的狮子。而瓶子最大的收获就是因此换了一个环境，有自己的生活圈子。

几年之后，又来了一只狮子，触动了瓶子的心。浪漫的瓶子，总是容易轻信狮子那恰到好处和爽朗的性格。瓶子带着对以前那只狮子的怀念，感谢着上帝的恩赐。瓶子有时候真的喜欢狮子的霸道和孩子气。

瓶子在狮子面前觉得自己像个被征服的战奴。

于是，瓶子和狮子的火花又燃起了。于是，同样的轨迹又重演了。疾风暴雨总是来的突然，去的也突然。可是狮子就是狮子，重视精神生活的瓶子发现狮子要的只是感官的享受。瓶子无论如何也不能接受狮子这样的统治和要求。

瓶子伤心，本以为和狮子有着无以替代的默契和缘份。可是，瓶子明白了，所有的一切不过是贪心和狡猾的狮子制造出来的。当瓶子识破了狮子的伎俩之后，狮子决然的消失了。又是一只好狠心的狮子。

瓶子跟狮子似乎总是有一种孽债，是不是瓶子总是欠狮子的？

狮子匆匆地来，又匆匆地走，匆匆地点起瓶子的热情，又匆匆地把它死死地踩灭。对于瓶子来说，狮子总是狠心的，还假情假意。

幸好瓶子够坚强，幸好瓶子够洒脱。瓶子自认为是个拿得起放得下的人，瓶子有点伤心，有点悲哀。但是瓶子依然高傲，瓶子不会对任何人妥协。

瓶子独立，自由，瓶子憎恨所有权威和统治。因而瓶子有点反叛。因而，瓶子会喜欢同样不畏权威的狮子。但是瓶子同样也不会向霸道的狮子低头。

尤其是虚伪龌龊的狮子。因为瓶子当然也更憎恨虚假。瓶子告诉自己再也不敢碰狮子了，瓶子对狮子已经没有一点留恋，瓶子痛恨狠心的人，瓶子也痛恨瞬间迸发的烟火。瓶子笑谈，自己长进了，以前烟火持续两个月。如今效率提高了，只用了两个礼拜。瓶子喜欢安静了，瓶子想要慢慢的静静的感情了。瓶子已经坚强了，瓶子懒得搭理任何狮子。

以前，瓶子说，我对狮子是又爱又狠的。现在，瓶子说，狮子？哼，狮子！瓶子高傲，瓶子不屑于去谈论狮子了。

瓶子依然洒脱，去寻找自己安安静静的爱情……

每逢佳节都特别思念您，[树欲静而凤不止，子欲养儿亲不在]

很想有机会陪伴着您， 谈谈近况。。。

我换了公司， 生活也比以前忙多了，这是您多么想听到的话吧？一年很快的过去了， 我们都过得很好；但想念您的心情就有加没减。。。
在这年的端午节特别想吃您包的粽子，我还记得它的味道。。。。

妈，祝您端午节快乐！！！
      

For all those times you stood by me
For all the truth that you made me see
For all the joy you brought to my life
For all the wrong that you made right
For every dream you made come true
For all the love I found in you
I'll be forever thankful baby
You're the one who held me up
Never let me fall
You're the one who saw me through through it all

You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'coz you believed
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me

You gave me wings and made me fly
You touched my hand I could touch the sky
I lost my faith, you gave it back to me
You said no star was out of reach
You stood by me and I stood tall
I had your love I had it all
I'm grateful for each day you gave me
Maybe I don't know that much
But I know this much is true
I was blessed because I was loved by you

You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'coz you believed
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me

You were always there for me
The tender wind that carried me
A light in the dark shining your love into my life
You've been my inspiration
Through the lies you were the truth
My world is a better place because of you

You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'coz you believed
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me

妈， 您好吗？

2006 年 4月  2日，中午12时 10分您的心跳 42。。。21。。。0，医生宣布我们最伟大的母亲逝世了，我知道再怎么呼唤您也不会再醒来了，这是一个不能挽回的事实。

这时，脑海里演绎著一幕一幕从小到长大的片段，您的教导，您的关怀，您对我们的疼爱，您的笑容，您的表情，您的声音，您的味道，悲伤即涌上心头；不舍得但这已是事实。

您在我们心目中可能不是一位完美的母亲，但是您已是一位完满的母亲。

陪著您一起对抗病魔的这两个月里，您很坚强与乐观的面对，我们都知道这些日子以来您已受尽了无尽的苦，您都勇敢的去面对。同时您也不想我们过于操心。

毕竟您选择了放弃，很安详，无痛的离开我们，无求什么。可能这就是您唯一解脱的方法，我们尊敬您的决定。

妈，您放心走吧，放下您一直以来的担忧，别再留恋。。。我们会照顾自己的，我们会时常陪在爸爸左右。

沒有事情是不會過的，我不會難過，因為是您不想看到的，是嗎？您的心意都會伴著我与父亲，姐姐，妹妹，弟弟一起走過，我們會好好的生活。 

願您到無苦無痛地，安息，永別了．．．

*****在每個人的生命旅程中，總有幾件事會常常縈繞腦海，午夜夢迴.

祈願天下所有父母健康快樂*****

孩儿，

俊强

8/4/2006

CK : "Happy New Year 2006 to all my friends"

Having diarrhrea on the eve and also begin the year of 2006. It is my first time celebrate new year in the toilet…..:& Well, it was a quite peaceful and quiet new year celabration.

May the new year flood your home with happiness, your heart with love, your life with needs, your soul with spiritual strength, your body with good health, your mind with wisdom and your computer with lots of ram……….

from CK

有些人生活在一個完全沒有壓力的地方﹐他們本身覺得很快樂﹐但是有點儿悶。這種生活必然很簡朴﹐甚至相當原始。

有些人生活在壓力非常大的環境﹐但過的生活卻複雜且充滿挑戰性﹐總有無限的開拓空間。你有選擇過那種生活的權力﹐有時候也不由你選擇。

你生活在那裡﹐就得怎樣生活﹐否則你只好選擇離開。

還記得嗎 窗外那被月光染亮的海洋
你還記得嗎 是愛讓彼此把夜點亮
為何後來我們 用沉默替代依賴
曾經朗朗星空 漸漸陰霾

心碎離開 轉身回到最初荒涼裡等待
為了寂寞 是否找個人填心中空白
我們變成了世上 最熟悉的陌生人
今後各自曲折 各自悲哀

只怪我們愛得那麼洶湧 愛得那麼深
於是夢醒了 擱淺了 沉默了 揮手了 卻回不了神

如果當初在交會時能忍住了 激動的靈魂
也許今夜我不會讓自己在思念裡 沉淪

我們變成了世上最熟悉的陌生人
今後各自曲折 各自悲哀?

~~~~~~無論生活、工作、友情還是愛情，我們得要學習接受期待與現實之間的落差。對某人的徹底失望，可能導致我們對所有人也意興闌珊。直到一天，我們遇到另一個人，我們嘗試放下偏見，才發現世事有時又會比我們的期待好一點。現實和期待之間當然還是會有落差，我們於是學會了不要太早就覺得榮幸。   ~~~~~~

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A wireman came to my house to install new lighting, you never know a professional wireman who are so poor in fixing fans and lightings. They broke one of the glass, wrong alignment mesurement of down lights, all kinds of shit. Really feel like kick off his nuts and ask him to go off.

Well, what can i do then? might as well spend a little bit more money to ask another guy to fix it again for those defects. It’s really turn me down today, think that i should have a good rest….have a good start on tomorrow. Hope i can fall as sleep la.

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